Saturday, April 13, 2019

Way Maker, Miracle Worker, Promise Keeper, Light In The Darkness

That is who you are.

For me, Spring comes with busyness. From Easter to weddings, the weather really makes it the perfect season for any celebration. This season for me is filled with birthdays, Easter celebrations, weddings, SO many birthdays..all wonderful things. Things that should make my heart feel so full of joy. And they do.

But for a moment, I caught myself being annoyed at this. I was annoyed that I didn't know when the next time I'd actually have a weekend off. I was annoyed at my busyness.

The girl who used to LONG to be included in these types of celebrations was IRRITATED that she was being included in so many. When I say I didn't have much before I surrendered my life to Jesus, I'm not just saying it. I didn't have many friends, I wasn't included in anything that wasn't my immediate family, I would have never been invited to any church family celebrations because I wouldn't even make eye contact with them. I spent too many nights wondering what was wrong with me. Trying to figure out why it seemed like all my peers were so busy celebrating life while I was living the same boring day to day life.

God changed all of the that. He drew my blood family closer to me, he gave me new family through the church, incredible friends. I was living a completely different life, I was included, I felt like I was apart of a family. I joke now that I have like 5 moms and dads and 3 new sisters, cause literally, I do.

When I thought God couldn't bless me any more than he already had, he gave me David.

So in that moment when I caught my self being irritated that I was being INCLUDED and WELCOMED in too many joyful events, it was sobering to remember that the old me would have been overcome with joy to be included in just one.

Today I'm thankful for this extremely busy season, because 20 years from now, I won't remember how tired I may have felt, but I will remember the beautiful memories this season held. Looking back on Spring 2019, one day it will be marked with great joy that I will long to relive for just a moment. And so, I'm making it my mission to cherish every moment, no matter how nonstop it feels, and just enjoy all of these things that I've been blessed with.


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